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The Short and Bittersweet Ending

Posted on 2005.10.24 at 07:35
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This journal's days are done (barring something utterly unforeseeable). My LiveJournal days are done. I've been doing a lot of thinking and have decided that it's time to move on, to leave LJ behind. Thing is, what brought me here no longer keeps me, and what once seemed good to me has in some cases become neutral to me, and in others it's turned not-so-good.

From my first (deleted) journal to m834 to this journal, I've spent years here. I have seen the collapse of a marriage and other relationships. I have seen the creation of new relationships, including the most profound and wonderful one of my life. I've grown a great amount, and I've seen certain aspects of myself -- aspects that I still treasure -- atrophy. It's been a real mixed bag, in other words. That's not a bad thing in itself; it's life as many of us know it. But the bag has gotten threadbare in places, and the patches I've stitched into its fabric are themselves wearing out. The LJ model is not working for me so well anymore. I think, no, I know -- it's time to make a radical change.

This journal will not be deleted. I want to keep track of a certain number of you, my friends, and I can't do that as well if I delete this journal. I hope that at least some of you know who you are. And I hope, too, that those of you who may feel disappointed at this turn will understand and forgive me.

I will still be publishing online, but in an entirely other space and in a different way. For the time being, I am going to say that I need to keep the exact whereabouts private. Those of you who'd like to continue corresponding with me may reach me via comments to this entry. At some point I may let you know where I've gone, but I make no promises. Sometimes it's necessary to leave old attachments, however valued, behind. You'll always be able to write to me via regular ol' email if you are so inclined.

Good luck to all of you in your lives. May you find what you seek, and may trouble fail to find you.

Take care, and be well.

Namaste.

Comments:


Brian Martinez
cluebyfour at 2005-10-24 14:52 (UTC) (Permalink)
I will miss your trenchant commentary, man. It has been hard to find good lefties to discuss the Issues of the Day.

Please, do keep in touch--either through my LJ alias or Yahoo! (cluebyfour). Peace.
malady_dome
malady_dome at 2005-10-24 15:18 (UTC) (Permalink)
no need to apologize, i've contemplated deleting my own journal time and time again. you need to do what's best for you.

i will miss your thoughtful insights and your wonderful photography!!!take care!!!
dewdrop
dewie at 2005-10-24 18:37 (UTC) (Permalink)
i will miss you.

take care, my friend.
suki
kurbish at 2005-10-25 13:51 (UTC) (Permalink)
You will be missed, and I wish the best in your new space. :) It's a little comforting to know that you will still be here, reading up on me now and again.

Take care.
King of Prussia
wilson_lizard at 2005-11-04 01:41 (UTC) (Permalink)
Fare Well! *hug*
lique at 2005-12-29 01:40 (UTC) (Permalink)
Since I was popping in to see what's up with you, I'll extremely belatedly say that I'm sorry to see you go but wish you well. :)
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